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Completed my FYP report at almost 4 0’clock in the afternoon… and it’s 5:20 pm and i haven’t finished printing

Damn!

Terpaksa juga hantar besok

we’ll be off to Beringgis Resort this afternoon for our department’s family day retreat. and by ‘we’, i meant, all the staff in my department.

this is supposed to be fun.

except for the ‘retreat’ part tho. but the other activities should be fun.

i guess it’s ok for me to forget about my FYP for 3 days. fingers crossed, i can get it done by Monday.

i think i’m actually good at this. i mean, the setting-aside-an-important-task-and-go-hv-fun-first thing.

*sigh*

i’m screwed!

I should be panicking right about now because we’re supposed to submit our FYP draf this Saturday and i haven’t done any writings yet. i have 3 chapters to complete and to make matters worse, i lost my thumbdrive with my FYP1 inside. All i have is hardcopies and i have to bribe my colleague to re-type the whole thing for me. still have to do all the diagrams tho…

and that’s only about the writing. my system is only about 60% done. i’m not sure whether i can complete it by next week!

i should really be panicking.

and to top it off, my department will be having a family day retreat this weekend. there goes another 2 days of not doing FYP.

Ms. Yatt & Pn. Siti, if u’re reading this, i’m really2 sorry… i hope i can do better, but i guess i just couldn’t “function” quite well under pressure. serves me right for being such a procrastinator.

help!

i feel like crocheting another blouse

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Friendship is like a bank account;
you cannot continue to draw on it
without making a deposit."
~ Nicole Beale

Yesterday, my Ellone wished us (hubby and I)

“Mommy, Daddy!!! Happy VANESSA_SARY!!!!”

i didn’t have the heart to correct her, coz i thought it was cute… heheheh

so, Happy 5th VANESSA-SARY to us…

i remember back in primary school, we were often asked about what we want to be when we grow up. we were even asked to write it down in paper and pass it up to our class teacher, every year! and i remember my ambition changed each year. i wanted to be a doctor – coz everybody wants to be a doctor. then, i wanted to be a teacher. soon after, i decided that i wanted to be a nurse. After a few years, i found out that lawyers make good money – so i decided that i wanted to be a lawyer. then in highschool, i discovered that i was quite good with numbers, so i decided that i wanted to be an accountant.

as i grew older, as i began to understand what each job is all about, i realized that choosing what you want to be when you finish school is actually a very very hard and confusing task. i realized that i couldn’t even decide on what i wanted to become later in life. being in this ‘unsure zone’ made me lost my focus too – so, i just went with the flow…

i ‘accidentally’ put myself in Science stream class after PMR examination coz i didn’t know what class interest me. and i did okay – i passed my SPM. then, i have to make another decision – which uni to go? still being unsure, i just filled up all the forms and waited for any uni that will accept me.

finally, i received an offer from UTM for a Computer Science course – a course that i have absolutely no idea about. i wasn’t familiar with computers back then, i didn’t even know what internet or email is and i bet the term BLOG didn’t even exist at that time.

i had almost declined the offer coz i thought that it would be nice to work straight away than to pursue my studies. MAS was conducting an interview in my area at that time and i was considering  to try my luck. but after a few persuasion session with my mom, i gave in and went to uni.

again, because i haven’t really decide on what i wanted to be and since i still couldn’t grasp the concept of being a computer programmer, i got distracted and barely passed for a diploma.

soon, i started working – as a computer programmer – and i thought being one is not so bad at all. in fact, i think i enjoyed being a programmer [at that time]. after a while, [and after having job insecurities experience(s)] i began to feel the need of getting a secure job and i landed one. BUT, after a few years of being in this job, i started feeling demotivated. Waking up in the morning is a constant struggle that i have to endure every morning. dragging myself to work each day is exhausting.

and now, i guess i finally know what i want to be in life….

After so long, i finally have an ambition!

I finally know what i want to be when i grow up!

I want to be………………

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A……

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SAHM!!!!!

Yep! u read that right!! I want to be a Stay At Home Mom!!!!

Now, wish me luck, you all!

I knew i couldn’t afford to become a SAHM real soon, but at least now i’m certain about what i want in life. At least now, i know what my goal is and i have a direction so that i won’t be lost anymore…

ABISSSSSS…..

yesterday, i sat for my entrepreneurship final exam. today, i’m supposed to be WORKING on my system yg x pandai siap2 tu. and tomorrow, supposed to continue the thing i’m supposed to do today. and the day after, i have another final exam paper. i should be studying for that paper after work today & tomorrow.

BUT

why do i feel like crocheting a blouse right now?

Well… what can I sayyyy……….

I have fallen in love with our local artist, Yuna.

ok, i know Yuna is old news but I’ve just found out that she is the singer of Dan Sebenarnya. ok, another old news.

so, i youtubed all her songs and does anybody agree with me if i say she sounded a lot like Jewel?

received this email from my dad this morning…

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80’s,arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb.
He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.
I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him.
I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.
While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.
The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.
I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer’s Disease.
As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.
I was surprised, and asked him, ‘And you still go every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are’?
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ‘She doesn’t know me, but I still know who she is’.
I had to hold back tears as he left; I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, ‘That is the kind of love I want in my life’.
True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.
With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message.
This one I thought I could share with you.
The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.
Do share this with someone you care about.

‘Life isn’t about how to survive the storm, But how to dance in the rain.’