Author: mesyel

SIAL PUNYA PENCURIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS MORNING, I DRIVE MY FIL’S CAR TO WORK. PUNYA TEKEJUT ME DURING LUNCH, THE CAR WASN’T THERE AT THE PARKING LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S A TOYOTA PRADO PLAT NO : SU 585 BIEGE (SILVER + PINKISH) COLOR.

IMAGINE THE HORROR I’VE FELT SEEING THE EMPTY PARKING LOT!!

WHERE????

UMS LIBRARY PARKING LOT, THAT’S WHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DON’T ASK ME IF THERE’S ANY CCTV OR NOT.

MACAM MO SAKIT JANTUNG PUN ADA.

New international (Read : China) students will be arriving and registering today. of course they have to undergo a tight health screening before entering the country but just to be on the safe side, for security measure, everyone who is on duty for the registration has to put on the mask today.

scary.

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hubby and the kids are playing badminton at the front lawn.. wanted to join them but i’m kinda having a crappy day today… i think mostly because of the heat and because of the blackouts we’ve been having since friday.

i feel quite bad coz i know it’s Father’s day today and i should be doing something good for hubby instead of snapping at every word he said. but then again, blame it on the weather. sapa suruh telampau panas!

now, let me drag u guys back to my previous ‘burning’ question. Should I or shouldn’t I go to my convocation.

i said earlier that I’m not keen on going and thank you for all your comments.

i felt the need to justify the reasons behind my ‘not keen on going’ statement after reading anonymous’ comment. not that i’m offended – well, maybe slightly – but i do have my reasons, ok.

1. i’ll be 30 yrs old this year and i am only about to receive my bachelor’s degree scroll. my degree convo should have been 8 years ago, if only i didn’t spend my time getting distracted by so many insignificant things. i should hv not wasted my time. 30 yrs old, this is supposed to be the time i attended my master’s degree convo. so, i’m not keen on going because this is not supposed to be the right time for me to receive it. i don’t feel the excitement anymore…

2. i sat in convocation ceremony every year since 2003. this year should be my 6th year being on duty during convo. and i’ve seen the havoc caused by students outside the hall, i’ve seen havoc caused by parents and relatives during convo and i thought to myself, i don’t wanna be a part of that chaos just to receive a piece of scroll. i know i’d be one of the responsible ones (ahem!) but i also know that almost all the others won’t. Gosh!! God forbid, if someone fell, i’m sure she/he would be trampled upon without mercy. talk about all those supposed to be educated ppl, most of them are too proud to follow instructions.

3. when i asks my friends on what’s so special about convocation, most of them said it’s because u’ll get your photo taken with your robe on. i thought, if that’s what the excitement is all about, i can just rent a robe and take photos at a studio and around the university. but then again, taking photos at the university i work for doesn’t make sense to me. i mean, i can always take photos around the university anytime, i work there…

4. i’ll get my 4 passes for 4 family members to be in the hall during the ceremony. who should i invite? hubby? my parents?? i don’t think they are keen on going too… like i said before, the time has passed and the excitement is not there anymore.

5. i think i’ll look funny in the convo attire.

BUT…

after reading Misako’s comment, it made me realize that going to convo is not only about me, not about what i felt, not about whether the excitement is there or not… sorry… how selfish of me! I’ve never thought that going to convo is actually one of the many ways i can thank all the teachers and lecturers that hv sacrificed their weekends just so that we, the off-campus students can get the chance to receive the scroll! going to convo is on of many ways for me to be grateful for my second chance! sudahlah nda bagi apa2 sama diorg… at least walking up the stage and receiving the scroll will give them the joy, the happiness and the reasons on why they are doing what they do… other than Misako, i think there would be another 2 or 3 lecturers who’d feel honored seeing me up there… i really hope they would be there.. coz i wouldn’t have my second chance if it wasn’t because of you!

so i’ve made my decision.

I am going to attend the 11th UMS Convocation, not for me, but for everyone that have supported me throughout the 5 years of studying and I’ll make sure hubby and my parents are going to be there too!

anyways, i’ll be running the 10K run a day before my convo so…. i might look horribly sunburnt on my convo day. anybody wants to volunteer paitunging my face???

well… i’m not getting married (again) if that’s ur definition of the BIG day.

tomorrow is my FYP (Final Year Project) presentation, also known as viva for some ppl. i dunno but i prefer the term presentation to viva. viva sounds so… so advance. and so formal too it sort of gives me the chill when i say viva.

still doing some touch-ups, tying some loose ends… hopefully i won’t miss any and cross my fingers, i hope i can do OK tomorrow. volunteered to be the 1st presenter mainly bcos, i don’t like waiting… the longer the wait, the busier all the butterflies in my stomach get. fluttering fluttering fluttering… owh i couldn’t stand that. better get it over and done with quickly.

i had almost given up on my FYP – again. i thought, i’d better do it next semester, or next next semester… but then again, if i postponed, i don’t think i can do any better than this. i guess i’d still be procrastinating, whining instead of doing what i’m supposed to do, doing all the stuffs last minute – what difference will it make?

looking back, it’s been 5 years since i started this off-campus program. almost all of my batch graduated last year. i deferred a semester coz i had ellone. was thinking of deferring another semester when i was pregnant with xavier, but luckily i didn’t. if i did, i would probably be extending until nx year. and i didn’t do all that bad… when i was pregnant with xavier, i had still manage to score 3 As out of the 6 subjects taken during that semester.

and hope i’ll be graduating this year. i guess i’m quite lucky coz i am one of the few students who maintained 3 pointers and above for all the semesters… considering the facts that i’m a mother of two, a wife to a wonderful and supportive husband, an employee to the department yang kadang2 pandai tiba2 bz, a DIL, a daughter – i’d still manage to survive with quite good grades.

and i still have one burning question.

if i manage to graduate this year, do you think i should go for my convocation? i wasn’t that keen on going. maybe i should just rent the robe and go to some studio and take a graduation photo.

ok… time to do the touch ups!

Completed my FYP report at almost 4 0’clock in the afternoon… and it’s 5:20 pm and i haven’t finished printing

Damn!

Terpaksa juga hantar besok

we’ll be off to Beringgis Resort this afternoon for our department’s family day retreat. and by ‘we’, i meant, all the staff in my department.

this is supposed to be fun.

except for the ‘retreat’ part tho. but the other activities should be fun.

i guess it’s ok for me to forget about my FYP for 3 days. fingers crossed, i can get it done by Monday.

i think i’m actually good at this. i mean, the setting-aside-an-important-task-and-go-hv-fun-first thing.

*sigh*

i’m screwed!

I should be panicking right about now because we’re supposed to submit our FYP draf this Saturday and i haven’t done any writings yet. i have 3 chapters to complete and to make matters worse, i lost my thumbdrive with my FYP1 inside. All i have is hardcopies and i have to bribe my colleague to re-type the whole thing for me. still have to do all the diagrams tho…

and that’s only about the writing. my system is only about 60% done. i’m not sure whether i can complete it by next week!

i should really be panicking.

and to top it off, my department will be having a family day retreat this weekend. there goes another 2 days of not doing FYP.

Ms. Yatt & Pn. Siti, if u’re reading this, i’m really2 sorry… i hope i can do better, but i guess i just couldn’t “function” quite well under pressure. serves me right for being such a procrastinator.

help!

i feel like crocheting another blouse

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Friendship is like a bank account;
you cannot continue to draw on it
without making a deposit."
~ Nicole Beale

Yesterday, my Ellone wished us (hubby and I)

“Mommy, Daddy!!! Happy VANESSA_SARY!!!!”

i didn’t have the heart to correct her, coz i thought it was cute… heheheh

so, Happy 5th VANESSA-SARY to us…