Author: mesyel

i remember back in primary school, we were often asked about what we want to be when we grow up. we were even asked to write it down in paper and pass it up to our class teacher, every year! and i remember my ambition changed each year. i wanted to be a doctor – coz everybody wants to be a doctor. then, i wanted to be a teacher. soon after, i decided that i wanted to be a nurse. After a few years, i found out that lawyers make good money – so i decided that i wanted to be a lawyer. then in highschool, i discovered that i was quite good with numbers, so i decided that i wanted to be an accountant.

as i grew older, as i began to understand what each job is all about, i realized that choosing what you want to be when you finish school is actually a very very hard and confusing task. i realized that i couldn’t even decide on what i wanted to become later in life. being in this ‘unsure zone’ made me lost my focus too – so, i just went with the flow…

i ‘accidentally’ put myself in Science stream class after PMR examination coz i didn’t know what class interest me. and i did okay – i passed my SPM. then, i have to make another decision – which uni to go? still being unsure, i just filled up all the forms and waited for any uni that will accept me.

finally, i received an offer from UTM for a Computer Science course – a course that i have absolutely no idea about. i wasn’t familiar with computers back then, i didn’t even know what internet or email is and i bet the term BLOG didn’t even exist at that time.

i had almost declined the offer coz i thought that it would be nice to work straight away than to pursue my studies. MAS was conducting an interview in my area at that time and i was considering  to try my luck. but after a few persuasion session with my mom, i gave in and went to uni.

again, because i haven’t really decide on what i wanted to be and since i still couldn’t grasp the concept of being a computer programmer, i got distracted and barely passed for a diploma.

soon, i started working – as a computer programmer – and i thought being one is not so bad at all. in fact, i think i enjoyed being a programmer [at that time]. after a while, [and after having job insecurities experience(s)] i began to feel the need of getting a secure job and i landed one. BUT, after a few years of being in this job, i started feeling demotivated. Waking up in the morning is a constant struggle that i have to endure every morning. dragging myself to work each day is exhausting.

and now, i guess i finally know what i want to be in life….

After so long, i finally have an ambition!

I finally know what i want to be when i grow up!

I want to be………………

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SAHM!!!!!

Yep! u read that right!! I want to be a Stay At Home Mom!!!!

Now, wish me luck, you all!

I knew i couldn’t afford to become a SAHM real soon, but at least now i’m certain about what i want in life. At least now, i know what my goal is and i have a direction so that i won’t be lost anymore…

ABISSSSSS…..

yesterday, i sat for my entrepreneurship final exam. today, i’m supposed to be WORKING on my system yg x pandai siap2 tu. and tomorrow, supposed to continue the thing i’m supposed to do today. and the day after, i have another final exam paper. i should be studying for that paper after work today & tomorrow.

BUT

why do i feel like crocheting a blouse right now?

Well… what can I sayyyy……….

I have fallen in love with our local artist, Yuna.

ok, i know Yuna is old news but I’ve just found out that she is the singer of Dan Sebenarnya. ok, another old news.

so, i youtubed all her songs and does anybody agree with me if i say she sounded a lot like Jewel?

received this email from my dad this morning…

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80’s,arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb.
He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.
I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him.
I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.
While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.
The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.
I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer’s Disease.
As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.
I was surprised, and asked him, ‘And you still go every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are’?
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ‘She doesn’t know me, but I still know who she is’.
I had to hold back tears as he left; I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, ‘That is the kind of love I want in my life’.
True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.
With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message.
This one I thought I could share with you.
The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.
Do share this with someone you care about.

‘Life isn’t about how to survive the storm, But how to dance in the rain.’

I’m just glad that my favourite contestant, Kris Allen has made it to the final round! and I really hate the fact that he’s up against Adam Lambert who – without any doubt – is going to win this whole thing. Still hoping for a miracle tho… but… *sigh*

Lil Rounds & Anoop Desai have been eliminated.

I have decided that I want Kris Allen to win.

But then again, I’m stupid.

We don’t get to decide, idiot! America Decides!

So hopefully they decide that they want Kris Allen to win.

And I still hate Adam Lambert

I’ve just found out that Dakota Fanning

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one of the cutest childstar ever,

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will be playing Jane in New Moon, the Twilight sequel. When I was reading the book, I never really paid attention to Jane so I don’t really remember how she’s supposed to look like. maybe i should start reading New Moon again just to see whether Dakota Fanning makes a good Jane or not.

Oh and btw, Taylor Lautner will be coming back after all.

I’m still on sick leave and I’m so loving it! I was given 3 days of sick leave and the doctor asked me to see him again later today to check on the eyes. This is how my eyes look like right now

macam mata Maya Karin di Pontianak Harum SUNDAL Malam kan? hehehe…

what do you think? are these eyes healthy enough for me to go to work tomorrow? guess i still need another 3 days of those sick leaves.

You know, the thing i love most about having conjunctivitis is that, except for the bloodshot eyes, there is actually nothing wrong with me. I feel perfectly fine! it’s not like having flu or fever or diarrhea where you’ll be bedridden for a good 2 or 3 days. this is like given free day off. Owh I’m loving every minute of this! The vision is a bit blurry tho, which can sometimes be quite uncomfortable, but other than that… this is superb!

jealous?

if you open Yahoo! and MSN today, u must hv noticed the article about Susan Boyle. I’ve never watched Americans Got Talent before, let alone Britains Got Talent. Heck, i didn’t even know there’s a show called Britains Got Talent… i know, i’m pathetic.

now, who is this Susan Boyle. By looking at her picture, there seems to be nothing special. She even said that she’s never been kissed and she lives alone with her cat, Pebbles. She’s 47 years old and i don’t blame the audience for underestimating her. she looked plain and i can imagine why the audience were expecting a horrible performance. even simon and piers looked cynical at 1st.

and…

when she started singing….

O… M…. G…!!!!!!!

youtube link

you should listen to it yourself. i think it sounded like…. like the voice of a Disney Princess singing… the voice of the all the songs in fairy tales. I got goose bumps all over me.

anyway, on a different note, i’m on sick leave today. infectious conjunctivitis! kan, sya bilang… yesterday, i suspected that i might have conjunctivitis. turns out to be true!

Megan Joy Corkrey is in the Bottom 3.

Allison Iraheta is in the Bottom 3.

Can you believe it? Scott MacIntyre is actually safe tonight!

Anoop Desai is in the Bottom 3.

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Megan Joy Corkrey has been eliminated. The judges decided not to save her. *sigh*. now i have to endure another week of Scott.